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personal rant below

If you’ve been following me for a while you probably know I broke up with my bf of over 6 years about a year ago now. We have a mutual friend who I’ve started to speaking to a lot more recently as we kind of drifted apart some time ago and hadn’t really talked for a few years.

Anyway, today he randomly asked me if I’d consider being friends with my ex and I said no because it would be too difficult and awkward. He said he wants us to talk again and that we were good together, even if it isn’t a love-relationship anymore and that I “can’t go through life removing someone I once held so dear and special” and that we should at least be friends. I told him I wouldn’t say never but it’s too soon for me right now.

I’m going to assume he’s been speaking to my ex and this is where this has come from because otherwise it’s just totally out of the blue. That makes me really uncomfortable and so does the fact that he said I shouldn’t remove someone from my life that I once loved. Because first of all, it’s nothing to do with him. Second of all, he clearly doesn’t understand how fucking difficult it would be to stay friends with someone you’ve been in relationship with for over 6 years and practically lived the whole beginning of your adult life with. It wouldn’t work. I’m not saying it’s impossible but I’m sure it’s not easy and I don’t want that in my life right now.

Well anyway, he didn’t say anything since I basically said I wasn’t interested, and that was a few hours ago. So I just sent him a random message, being kind of funny and normally he would say something funny back or make fun of me or ask some kind of question. In short, I’d normally get some kind of reaction. But all he’s replied with is “Ok”.

What the fuck? Am I just reading into this too much or is he like, pissed at me for not wanting to remain friends with my ex?? This is absurd and I’m just not going to talk to him until he talks to me because I won’t put up with childish bullshit like that. I would kind of get it if we were all really close and he missed that but guys, the 3 of us haven’t been close for literally years. The first 1 or 2 years of our relationship we were all really close and we’d speak to each other every day. But then we drifted and barely talked for the last few years so what the fuck?