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sims4lifeee21
replied to your post “i think i’m struggling[[MOR] i ended up going home from work today…”

I read the whole thing.. Stress a horrible thing 😦 I hope you feel relaxed soon!

cora626
replied to your post “i think i’m struggling[[MOR] i ended up going home from work today…”

I hope thi mb gs look up for you. No one should feel that way.

simgguk
replied to your post “i think i’m struggling[[MOR] i ended up going home from work today…”

i really hope things get better for you, dear! please let us know how everything works out ❤️

simmingbee
replied to your post “i think i’m struggling[[MOR] i ended up going home from work today…”

I completely feel this. My work situation was super stressful and it made my anxiety 1000 times worse! Hopefully the doctor will be able to help or at least recommend something!

ohhiplumbob
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I’m so sorry love. Let us know how you get on at the Dr, I have a guided meditation app that I use, a friend went to the Dr for stress & they recommended she try meditation. Sending love ❤

neopixiesims
replied to your post “i think i’m struggling[[MOR] i ended up going home from work today…”

I hope the appointment helps and that you feel better. I’m sorry this is happening. Sending positive thoughts your way ♥

Thank you all so, so much for the replies to my post yesterday. You have no idea how much I appreciate every single one of you commenting. Seriously, thank you. And I don’t want anyone else to feel the way I’m feeling but I can’t deny that it is comforting to know other people understand how I’m feeling and have gone through something similar so I know I’m not alone.

I went to the doctor and he said what I thought he would say – it sounds like an overload of work and conflicting information from managers at work has caused stress and it’s just built up and then released itself yesterday. 

He said I’m not fit for work at the moment and to sign myself off for a week. Take that time to not think about work, to do things I enjoy, to relax, to take walks and exercise. Just focus on time for myself basically. After that, I can go back to him to see if I’m ready to return or if I need more time.

I called my supervisor just and let her know. Talking about it made me emotional again and she could obviously tell so she asked me if I’m ok and I just burst into tears again. I told her I knew I’d been stressed recently but I didn’t think it was affecting me this much and that yesterday was like a switch had just flipped and it all came out. She told me to take care of myself and we’ll talk next week.

Again, thank you all so much for the support well-wishes ♥

i think i’m struggling

i ended up going home from work today before lunch time. some small thing happened that made me a bit angry to begin with and the more i thought about it the more upset it was making me so i went to the bathroom and ended up crying in there for 20 minutes. i finally came out and said to my supervisor that i don’t feel well and have to go home. i could barely keep it together whilst i tidied away my shit and i had tears on my face, it was so fucking embarrassing because everybody would’ve seen it. as soon as i got in my car i burst out crying, like full on and basically cried all the way home and then would start and stop crying  at home.

i have been stressed at work recently, the past few weeks/months because there is a lot of work for us to do, we have very tight deadlines, we get unhappy people calling (i work in payroll) and we’ve also been short of staff as a bunch of people left all at once so we’re still basically catching our tails with all the work. and i know i’ve been stressed but i didn’t think it was affecting me THIS badly?? idk if it’s just the built stress that’s suddenly broke me and it’s all come out at once or if something else is going on?

to give context for today – when i first started my job i was told by my previous supervisor that if i had any questions about anything or i was stuck on something i could ask anyone on the team and they would help. i had to switch teams (but we all still work in the same department and the same room) so i have a new supervisor but my old supervisor is still here – i just don’t report to her directly anymore. so a few weeks ago, my team was told that if we had questions about something we weren’t allowed to ask each other or the other team and it had to go to a supervisor. well, my supervisor has been off on holiday the past 2 weeks so we’ve been helping each other and a lot of my questions goes to another woman, michelle, who has been working there for years and has a lot of experience. so anyway, my supervisor came back this week and it’s been ok? until today. 

i was just doing work and then michelle came up to me and apparantly my supervisor told her that if i ask her anymore questions she has to say she’s not allowed to help and i HAVE to go and ask my supervisor instead. that’s the thing that flipped me today and all this happened.

like it is a very frustrating thing to happen and it makes me feel uncomfortable that i’m not allowed to ask a colleague, a team member, for help or advice. someone who has been there for years and KNOWS what she’s doing. it makes me feel like i’m being watched and everything i say is monitored. i feel anxious now when there’s something i don’t know what to do with because i want to ask the people i feel most comfortable with but i’m not allowed to???? it does make me really upset and just like a fucking child, you know?

but anyway, i  don’t think that happening is bad enough for the reaction i’ve had to it. i was FULL ON BAWLING earlier, like you would have thought something awful happened to me or i had some really bad news delivered but no.

it doesn’t feel normal. not at all. 

also, the past week, i haven’t felt like socialising whatsoever at work. normally we go to lunch together and have break together. i haven’t been able to bring myself to do that this week. i’ve gone to lunch and break by myself because i just don’t have the energy to be around other people. i feel so irritable, like i could snap at people and i don’t want that to happen so i’d rather just be on my own. i can’t be bothered to talk to my coworkers, i just don’t care about what they have to say right now and i can’t be botehred replying to their questions at me either.

i’ve got a doctor’s appointment in 30 minutes so yeah. i hope they can shed some light. maybe it is just stress and it’s gotten on top of me. i thought maybe it could be depression but i normally feel absolutely fine and normal at home, it’s just at work it kicks in. so idk

Hi, love you and your Sims so much! Everything is so pretty! Including you, you don’t post selfies that much, but when you do.. you slayy 😘😘😘

Ahhhh thank you so so much, that means so much to me. thank you, i love you!! ♥♥

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but also, i realise that i don’t post my face that much and when i do it’s always when i’m feeling confident and hot and that’s what most people do, right? i think that’s kind of the curse with social media in that everyone just sees the best things about someone else’s life, the highlights, the good times, when they feel and look sexy and it can make other people feel bad because they think “why don’t i look like that” or “why is my life so boring and non eventful”. I know that i suffer from those thoughts A LOT when i browse through instagram or youtube or whatever and i think it’s good to show the more normal or everyday things sometimes?

i don’t really know where that rambling came from but anyway, here’s my non-hot face today – i have a day off work, i haven’t showered all weekend, my hair is greasy af, i’m still in my PJs and i’m just dancing around the house doing chores and listening to the sims 1 soundtrack

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my baby is at the vet right now and i’m worried out of my mind.

i was driving to work this morning when my mum called me just before 8am to tell me Cas had a seizure. she said he had one at 2am last night and then another just before she called me at 8. i rushed home and we took him to the vet.

they did some blood tests and everything was normal so they prescribed some seizure medication for him but they didn’t have any liquid, just dog tablets which are too big for cats (he would need a 10th of the tablet and it was too small to realistically break up into the correct size. so, they ordered some liquid stuff in but that wouldn’t arrive until tomorrow so they said to take him home and keep a close eye on him.

we took him home, i was getting ready to go into work whilst Cas was sleeping next to me on the sofa. next thing i know, he’s on the floor, having another seizure and i just… my heart broke.

we called the vet who said to take him back in so we left immediately. he slept on top of my knee the whole ride there without moving an inch. he was so confused and sleepy. the vet said we’d have to keep him at the vet overnight, they put him on a drip and gave him seizure meds so we just had to leave.

i can’t believe i’m saying this but i hope it’s epilepsy… because the alternative is he has something going on with his brain, like a tumor. which we’d need to refer him down to edinburgh or glasgow to get an MRI which would cost upwards of £2,000. money that i don’t have. money that my family doesn’t have. i can’t even think about it right now.

but even if he doesn’t have a brain tumor and it’s epilepsy, it means he’s going to potentially be on medication for the rest of his life now

so. yeah. he’s at the vet, all by himself and i feel like shit. he’s all alone and has no idea what’s going on. what if he has another seizure during the night? or more than one? no one is there to comfort him. i have work tomorrow until 2 but i might ask to leave early to go and pick him up. i’m just gonna be sitting at work sick to my stomach worried about him. i have the worst thoughts running through my head right now, like what if they call me first thing tomorrow to say he didn’t make it through the night? i shouldn’t have left him there by himself.

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you guys honestly keep me going with this shit, thank you, i love you all

lyllian-lykaios
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Nuuu andrew believe ;-;

He’s too hurt right now to think straight 😦

peacemaker-ic
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you are such a douchebag frank. Not even any respect for your brother

He only really cares about himself tbh. He’s top dog and he just thinks of Andrew as his nerdy twin.

simpyre
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officially time for Triss and Andrew to get their own place

marquis-de-bechdel
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WHAT A SKET GRRR

duskysimmer
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Omg!!������

nervoussimblr
replied to your photoset “Frank: “No no no, you don’t have to do that. Just… Wait.”

boiiiii

peacemaker-ic
replied to your photoset “Frank: “No no no, you don’t have to do that. Just… Wait.”

Unhand her you brute!

(ง •̀_•́)ง

ddeathflower
replied to your photoset “Frank: “No no no, you don’t have to do that. Just… Wait.”

let go of her arm dickwad ༼ง=ಠ益ಠ=༽ง

marquis-de-bechdel
replied to your photoset “Frank: “No no no, you don’t have to do that. Just… Wait.”

oh jeez i hate frank so much??? he’s a real creep

Get to know me

I was tagged by @simmingnoobmag – thank you!

1ST RULE: Tag 10 people you want to get to know better

I tag: @letichespixels @midnightpoodle @womrats @suintor @crimsonsims @simsthatsparkle @peacemaker-ic @meisiu @ohare-lane @shysimblr

2ND RULE: BOLD the statements that are true

I am 5’7" or taller
I wear glasses
I have at least one tattoo
I have at least one piercing
I have blonde hair

I have brown eyes
I have short hair
My abs are at least somewhat defined
I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY:
I love meeting new people 
People tell me that I’m funny
Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me
I enjoy physical challenges
I enjoy mental challenges
I’m playfully rude with people I know well

ABILITY:
I can sing well
I can play an instrument
I can do over 30 pushups without stopping
I’m a fast runner
I can draw well
I have a good memory
I’m good at doing math in my head
I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute
I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling
I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch
I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES:
I enjoy playing sports
I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else
I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else
I have learned a new song in the past week
I work out at least once a week
I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months
I have drawn something in the past month
FANDOMS ARE MY #1 PASSION
I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES:
I have had my first kiss
I have had alcohol
I have scored the winning goal in a sports game
I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting
I have been at an overnight event
I have been in a taxi
I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year
I have beaten a video game in one day
I have visited another country

RELATIONSHIPS:
I’m in a relationship
I have a crush on a celebrity
I have a crush on someone I know
I have been in at least 3 relationships
I have never been in a relationship
I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them
I get crushes easily
I have had a crush on someone for over a year
I have been in a relationship for at least a year
I have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE:
I have at least one person I consider a “best friend”
I live close to my school
My parents are still together
I have at least one sibling
I live in the United States
There is snow right now where I live
I have hung out with a friend in the past month
I have a smartphone
I have at least 15 CDs
I share my room with someone

RANDOM CRAP:
I have breakdanced
I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce
I have dyed my hair
I’m listening to one song on repeat right now
I have punched someone in the past week
I know someone who has gone to jail
I have broken a bone
I have eaten a waffle today
I know what I want to do with my life
I speak at least 2 languages
I have made a new friend in the past year

10 Q’s

RULES: ALWAYS POST THE RULES, ANSWER THE QUESTIONS GIVEN TO YOU, THEN WRITE 10 QUESTIONS OF YOUR OWN, AND TAG SOME FRIENDS! 

Tagged by @suintor ♥ 

1. What’s your favourite item in your room that you own?

I would say my PC but if that doesn’t count then probably my Bioshock Infinite Skyhook.

2. Are you an early bird or a night owl?

See, my first instinct is to say night owl because I’m a massive grouchy bitch in the morning but at the same time I don’t really stay up that late? I usually go to bed around 11 or something so yeah.

3. Pizza, Ice Cream or Burrito?

Burrito! I’m scared to say it but I think I’m going off of pizza a little bit?

4. Most remembered dream that you’ve had?

It’s hard to think of any right now tbh. I usually only remember dreams just after they’ve happened and then I forget about them pretty quickly.

5. Which HP house are you in (Gryff, Slyth, Huffle, Raven)?

I don’t know which one I’d pick personally because I’m not a huge Harry Potter fan. But I did do that online thing once where the website sorts you and I got sorted into Hufflepuff.

6. Describe yourself in 4 words;

Introverted, Smol, Dedicated and Anxious

7. What age do you wish you could permanently be?

To be honest, I’d like to stay the same age I am right now (24). I feel like it’s not too young to be not taken seriously in some situations but also not so old that I’m considered, well, old lmao. 

8. If you could live anywhere, where would you go?

As much as I complain about Scotland sometimes, I honestly do love living here. I think we take a lot of the stuff we have for granted and we really do have many advantages that other countries don’t have. I’m just worried for what the future holds because of Brexit now…

9. If you could change your name, what would it be?

When I was a teen, I don’t know why, but I went through a phase where I wanted everyone to start calling me Jamie? It was my favourite name and I also wanted to name my first kid Jamie lmoa I don’t know what the fuck. But in response to the question, I have no idea. I wouldn’t change my name to Jamie now but I don’t know what else I’d change it to. I don’t particularly like my current name but I also have no real desire to change it.

10. Biggest fear?

Losing the person/people I love the most in the world and being left alone.

Tagged by @univertistsims​, thank you!
Rules: Answer the questions, tag some friends. 

1. Favourite curse word?

Cunt.

2. Coke or Pepsi?

Coke.

3. What superpower would you like to have?

Invisibility.

4. Ultimate pet peeve?

People being two-faced and people who lie.

5. Without EP’s and DLC’s, Sims 3 or 4?

I actually can’t stand the graphics and style of Sims 3 so it would have to be 4.

6. What’s the last time you screamed at the top of your lungs?

I actually don’t even know. I did scream pretty loudly earlier today because I was getting out of my sister’s car and this MASSIVE bee came flying at me into the car and yeah, I freaked out a little bit because my hands were full with stuff.

7. What’s something you’ve done that you wish you could undo?

When I was a teenager I had braces but I hated them so I basically begged to get them taken off. They were taken off too early, my teeth weren’t totally straight and then on top of that I didn’t wear my retainer so they’ve gone back to being not straight and now if I want them straight (which I do) it’s gonna cost like £3k to get fixed.

8. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?

Answered above.

9. Last lie you told?

Uhhh, I’m not sure. Probably that I wasn’t mad when I actually was lmao.

10. Strangest thing you’ve ever eaten?

?? I have no idea. I don’t think I’ve eaten anything strange. I’m pretty conservative when it comes to food.

Tagged by @shannonsimsfan, thank you!

1. What is your current sims project?

Just continuing on with my Fontaine legacy right now.

2.  What is it about sims games that inspires or draws you in?

I guess it’s a combination of the freedom to do whatever I want, to create lives and stories with characters I’ve made, to follow a family through generations and see what happens and also the massive amount of creativity the game allows.

3.  Favorite sims community or forum?

Does Tumblr count? If not, probably Garden of Shadows, though I haven’t visited in a long time because I haven’t been playing TS2.

4.  What sims blogs or videos are you enjoying lately?

I’ve got notifications on a bunch of simblrs right now, including @letichespixels, @simsthatsparkle, @sims-creations, @midpoosimmer, @womrats, @sammyshuno, @faerietalesims, @coreopsims, @ohare-lane, @suintor

I don’t really watch that much sims content on YouTube so I don’t have any channels or videos that I’m following

5.  Favorite sim lit genre?

Uhh, I have no idea how to answer this one, haha. I guess just legacies? 

6.  Favorite part of simming (building, playing, creating content, writing, world building, etc?)

Actual playing, taking screenshots and creating sims.

7.  Do you know any simmers in real life?

Nope, none! (Not to the extent of the Simming community anyway, I obviously know people who play and have played the sims. But there’s a difference, you know? You know what I’m talking about guys. And I don’t meant it in an elitist way or anything I just mean there’s people who play the sims now and again for a bit of fun and then there’s us on Simblr.)

8.  Describe one of your favorite sims.

Brigid is probably my favourite TS4 sim so far. I think it’s a combination of me doing something different with her childhood and upbringing and just her personality and character in general. She’s so kind and caring and wants to see the very best in people and always give them a chance. She’s just super happy and cheerful and pure.

9.  Have you ever had a sim you really disliked playing?!

Hmm… I dislike playing Frank, not in the way that I actually don’t want to play when it’s his rotation but just because he’s slimy and an asshole and it hurts me to basically play out these situations and actions in the game to my other sims because it’s so mean but that’s just the character Frank is and it’s things he would do so I have to do it 😦

10.   Do you picture yourself playing sims in five years from now?

100%, yes!

My 10 Questions;

  1. What are you listening to/watching right now?
  2. Other than The Sims, what have you been playing recently?
  3. Do you have any pets?
  4. What’s your favourite TV show?
  5. Do you have any idea what you want to do when you’re older? Or if you’re ‘older’ what are you doing or what would you rather be doing?
  6. Who’s your favourite YouTuber?
  7. Where does most of your disposable income go?
  8. What do you eat on an average day?
  9. Do you have any other tumblr blogs?
  10. What’s the last film you went to see?

I’ll tag: @letichespixels @peacemaker-ic @simpyre @crimsonsims @creatingsims @windenburger @midnightpoodle @wooldawn @ddeathflower @marquis-de-bechdel @simseternity @simsthatsparkle, @meisiu and anyone else who wants to do it, sorry if I didn’t tag you, just go for it!