I need to rant. Sorry for no read more and massive wall of text but I’m on mobile and I just need to vent rn.
I love him, I really do, but my boyfriend has honestly just been annoying me this week and I need to just get it off my chest and hopefully it will help my mood a little bit because I’m in a big one.
So first thing, we watch game of thrones together, we both absolutely love it and we’ve been so excited for this season. Yesterday, he watched the last 35 minutes of the newest episode without me and then kept saying how good it was. I had previously told him about my sister’s boyfriend who did a very similar thing and his response to that was basically what an asshole, that’s a horrible thing to do. And he did say he did a horrible, awful thing before he told me but it still really pissed me off.
Last night, he went out with his friends and just before I went to bed he said he’s decided to go out out, as in to clubs and whatnot. He ended up getting home after 4am and was apparently so drunk his roommate had to help him to bed. Even after that he’s been driving today which I’m not happy about as it’s like the third time recently where he’s gotten very drunk the night before and then driven the next day when he really shouldn’t be.
I’ve been having financial issues because of my work situation so I’ve been trying pretty hard to get something else sorted for myself. Some things have come up and I’ve told him about everything in detail, and I understand it might be a lot to take in, but I was speaking to him earlier today about updates and he basically kept asking me questions that I already answered before and like he had no idea what I was speaking about? It just frustrated me because I was repeating myself and telling him things I’ve already told him but it’s like he just doesn’t take any of it in.
I’m doing a temporary job today and am near where he lives so I suggested we meet up and go to lunch together as I had an hour and he wasn’t starting work until a couple of hours later. He said no because he was meeting his grandad, which is fair enough but it still bummed me out a little considering we won’t see each other until Saturday night otherwise.
He’s also looking for better employment and has recently had an opportunity come up for an apprenticeship position doing exactly what he wants to do and it would be perfect for him. He had an interview with them yesterday morning and it went really well and they want to see him again for a presentation tomorrow morning. He hasn’t even started on the presentation yet and he’s at work until 7pm tonight. Like, he could’ve at least started on it today but nope. He’s really excited and hopeful about this opportunity so I thought he would be putting in loads of effort to make sure he gets it. And I suppose he can still put loads of effort into it tonight but it just feels like he’s leaving it so last minute?
He told me earlier on today that he’s been invited to go on holiday with some people from work next year to magaluf. He’s also going to New York with his family for a holiday next year for 2 weeks and I’ve been told it’s family only so I can’t go. Which I understand, but it’s still a bit of a blow to hear. But anyway, because he’s decided to go to that, we discussed that we would go on our own little holiday that would be less expensive. Originally we were planning on going to South Korea but since he decided to go to new York, he wouldn’t be able to afford both. Which was fine with me, I really wasn’t bothered at all. But then this magaluf trip comes up, so I mention he’s going to be going on holiday 3 times next year to which he replies basically saying what 3rd holiday? And this goes back to my previous point about him not taking in things that we talk about and I have to repeat myself or he says we never talked about that. So I bring up that we’re supposed to go on holiday together and he again basically implies we never talked about that and that if we’re living together then (which we have talked about) then it might be a struggle to pay for that. Sorry but we talked about a holiday together before this magaluf thing so surely that should be more financially important?? It’s like it didn’t even enter his mind that we would go on holiday together next year. I also need to ask who’s going on this trip because there’s a certain girl who I have issues with (not personally I guess but because of things they have spoken about together and previously done) that I wouldn’t feel comfortable with being on a trip together. Especially a holiday like magaluf where they all with basically be drunk the whole time. I do trust him but I’m just not comfortable with that at all. And let’s be honest, I’m jealous. Like I absolutely know I am but I don’t know how to change that feeling?
To top it off, I just said to him that the first thing I’m going to do when I get home tonight is take a nap and he just laughed at me. I don’t know really know why that would be funny. Considering I got up at 5am, had to travel over an hour, and had the stress of starting a new job (yes its just for one day but my anxiety was spiking about having to meet new people, drive somewhere new and do something I haven’t done before). So I’m pretty exhausted and I still have another hour to go.
I haven’t said anything to him since then and honestly I do think I just need a good sleep, a rest and to actually speak to him in person and because I’m just. Ugh I’m stressed and frustrated and tired and it feels like he doesn’t listen to me or sometimes even think about me (regarding the holiday thing) and im
Yeah idk. I guess I feel a little better? Not really lmao. I just want to get home and go to my bed
Plumbobbles 