Having a small panic…
The guy I’m seeing, who I really really like, just asked me if I would be angry if he enlisted in the marines. I told him I wouldn’t be angry but I’d be pretty sad but like I have no idea what that even entails. So I asked him how long he’d have to be away for and he says he doesn’t know but it would be for like 10 years with time off and I’m just???. That’s such a long time? I don’t know if I could cope with that tbh. I’ve done long distance before and I said I’d never do it again because it’s just so hard.
And like, how dangerous is it as well? I don’t even know, I never liked the thought of someone I know or a partner being in the military, I said to myself that I wouldn’t accept that and then now? I don’t know guys, I feel really sad and I’m just freaking out a bit.
It’s not something that will happen soon anyway, like at least a year (I hope) so it’s a lot of time to think about it (both of us) and I hope he changes his mind because even the thought of it just makes me uncomfortable and sad.
We’re in the middle of taking about it rn but we’re both at work so it’s really difficult and I guess it’s making me even more anxious and just feel sick ugh




